Thursday, August 25, 2011


So this past month has been filled with many emotions- happiness, sadness,  confusion, tiredness, and excitement.  There has been death, broken relationships, new friendships, start of new adventures and many other events.  Each was real and effected me in different ways but I felt prepared.  Prepared in a sicne that many of these emotions I felt before or I felt prepared to handle.

However yesterday that came to a screeching hault. Though I cannot tell the details of the children's case I can say that yesterday I was heartbroken, scared, possesive and then I had some relief.  I am not sure I have ever felt emotions to the degree that I did yestersday.  I was worn out by the end of the day.  I have worked in and around the foster care system for 6 years and our agency did a great job in their preparation classes but nothing can prepare you for just how easy it is to fall in love with the children in your home.  And a result of this love that you have for them is bigger emotions (or at least it did for me).   Though yesterday left me worn out it alao a reminder of why we do what we do and that these little ones are worth fighting for.  And I know that I am not a "real" parent but I sure felt real emotions and pray that as long as they are here we can be the best "papi" and "mami" we can be.

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