Fall, well eh, I think it's fall...

Ok I must begin by stating I love the fall time of year.  It's probably my favorite time of year.  People start to get a little nicer (it's not too close to Christmas for the niceness to wear off) and the weather is perfect.  I know here in my part of Texas we really do not get too much of the leaves changing colors but it's enough for me.  It's reminder to me of the opportunity we have to change and to start over and how beautiful (and ugly) the process of change can be!  Too bad though it's too hot here for the leaves to change and I am still wearing shorts and flip flops but these are the things November *usually* brings.

I have spent my morning in prayer concerned about the most precious little boy that God has placed in our home for this season.  He is growing, learning, laughing, and he is hurting.  I find it so frustrating at times that he cannot verbalize what is upsetting him.  Our little one shows such big emotions, pitching these huge fits, hitting things and yelling.  He cries and tells us "no" but he cannot communicate with us what it is he wants/needs.  I find myself wondering how to comfort him, how to teach him he is safe with us, how to give him an outlet for his emotions.  I am angry that a young boy has experienced so much that he has such huge emotions.  So as we enter into this time of year that reminds me of change, love and new beginnings, I pray that we can love our little one into his new beginning where he can leave behind the hurt and shed whatever pain may be bothering him.

Don't get me wrong not every day is a "bad" day but even if there is one, that is one too many for me.  So please join me in prayer for our little man.  That he will first understand the love that only God can provide and that he know he is safe and loved at our house.  Also that he will continue to learn how to communicate and that Buck and I will be creative in our ways to allow him to communicate.  He is a beautiful child with a big heart and I look forward to our continued journey with him.  And thank you for a God that is bigger than any situation.

Happy 6 months to the littlest member of our family!  What a blessing she has been and what a joy it has been to see her and her brother interact with each other and us.  Love them to pieces!

update

I must start by saying how super sad and disappointed I am in my Texas Rangers.  Baseball season is over and we didn't win it all.  I am still upset about this and hope that by the time baseball season comes back around I will have forgiven them and will be ready to cheer them on again.  As of now....I'm not too sure.

Enough about them onto the kiddos! Our little ones are growing so well.  The oldest is learning to talk more each day his little personality is shining through.  He is so caring and a huge helper!  He gives the best hugs and kisses.  And I love it when he brings us a book and asks us to read to him.    He loves playing outside, reading and just being with people who will show him some love :)  We are so blessed to have so many people to help us in showing him that he is special and loved.  From my small group of girls at church to our own family who will drive in to spend time with him, each person is making a difference in him understanding who he is!  We have also been blessed with becoming friends with the middle boys foster mom.  Buck and I are both so thankful for her and her heart and encouragement in this process.  What an amazing woman she is!

With our little man comes huge emotions.  He can pitch of fit with the best of them and knows how to stop that foot when he is mad! We are also constantly having to remind him  he is safe in our house and that we aren't going anywhere.  Last night he came out of his room several times just to make sure we were still here.  I pray that with time he will overcome this fear.

The baby is so much fun.  She is snugly and giggly.  She is rolling all over the place and just talking to us the whole time.  She is really the happiest baby ever and of course one of the prettiest.  I love our mornings together.  When I get to give her all my attention while we read, play,talk, and run errands together.  

While these children have brought so much joy to our lives I was reminded yesterday that their time here is not permanent.  The ultimate goal is for their mom to get well and for their family to reunited.  It's hard for me at times to imagine our life without them.   But after a few hours of moping around, I realized that this is why he decided to become foster parents, to help families become whole again, to show families that you can thrive when you make good choices and to use the resources when you need help.  I also have to remember that God is still in the business of changing people and no one is beyond his love.  So as much as I would like for these little ones to be with us forever, I feel that for now I need to root on their mom and do what I can help her.  But I do pray that if/when they return home that God will provide us with peace.

However until we know that outcome of their case we love them and go on like they are here forever, and what a blessing they are and they bring such joy to our home!